As my wife and I are nearing the end of a season here in Dallas, I look forward to the future. There will be new beginnings on new foundations that have been laid here in Dallas. As mentioned previously, most of the deconstruction that I have gone through has been for the better. I like who I am more than I did four years ago and that is a good thing. However, now that I am seemingly at the end of this deconstruction period, I reflect on that which I miss the most about the previous me – devotion.
I cannot recall the last time I opened the Bible to read or study on my own accord. I cannot recall the last time I spent in contemplative prayer or meditation. I miss these things. I do not miss the way I previously went about these disciplines, but what I miss is the desire to be engaged in them. I think it to be a good thing that I am now reflecting on this. In fact, I expect it to represent a signpost advertising the things to come. I look forward to what will be built on the new foundation.
My hope is that father will turn over this new leaf and help me to continually understand himself and myself in ways that allow for edification.
